New Year 2010

How was my new year? I spent it alone, so you can just imagine how great that was. parents fought for a quick second on new years, the house was dead quiet and dark by 11, wasn't allowed to stay up and text depite the fact that it is new years, therefore, I spent new years alone. New years and Chirstmas mean a lot to me, more than anyone could imagine. It's a time where my family gets together and celebrates. Our family bonding time, our laughter, our conversations going epik high (LOL). This year err last year's christmas, that was all lost, well for me at least. Mmmm, I know my family had a great time, everyone laughed their heart out. But me personally, I didn't feel it. I forced a smile the whole way through. As for new years, I tried to have the slightest excitement the happiness, but tears came out instead. Why? cuz these 2 days mean a lot to me, now having to spend it alone was a total disrupt on my part. Maybe some will understand what I went through, maybe some won't. I really hope you do tho. No one seems to anymore. There's that teeny hope I have left that someone will, someone has to to keep the world go round. Mmmm, 2010 huh? Is it looking up? hmmm not the first day, but I'm hoping the following days afterward will be better. I spent the first week of break laying around doing nothing, watching movies all day. The second week of break was spent productively. The first two days was straight up hw around the clock, literally. I did nothing but hw from the moment i woke up to the time I went to bed. Then the days remaining was spent reading books : The Truth About Forever by Sarah Dessen, Deat John by Nicholas Sparks. Each book took me two days to finish. Im going to read Message in a Bottle and The Gardian which are both by Nicholas Sparks. He's a great author. I really don't wanna go back to school tmrw. Maybe I do, maybe I do miss my freinds. Maybe I don't, but I know forshure I don't miss the hw and teaching and what not. Either way, I just don't want to go back to school. Mmmm, what else was I going to say? I don't know. I'm guessing when there's nothing left to say, or I don't know what else to say, then it is best to leave it as is and walk away. Am I right?