Today was ok. I got a whole bunch of C's on my spanish assignments which I think will cost me my A. Damn...I'm slacking!!! Got a C on my chem test and a fucking D on my Ap Euro test. sighhh....tihs is scary. I don't want B's I can't afford to have B's. uhmmm...found out I have a 82 resting heart rate today per minute. I swear Imma die soon. Went to frisbee with friends today after school it was fun i guess. really tired. uhmmm...what else. I really don't know. I'm really dissapointed in myself. no matter what i do, ill always stil remain here, as the person i am...the one who is always there, not very bright either or athletic. I don't know I don't know I don't know, I don't know anything anymore. what the hell is taking a hold of me? I'm not who i used to be, im slacking in school. welll...ehhh. i just wish sometimes my dreams would turn out to be realities.