TENNIS IS BULLSHITT BULLSHITT BULLLSHIIIITTTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I HATE Y FUCKING COACHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i miss practice for ONE day, ONE FUCKING DAY!! and i come back today and he goes where were you yesterday? and im like i had a lot of hw i couldnt come and he ROLLS HIS EYES AT ME AND WENT PPPSSHHH!! THAT FOOL HAS THE NERVEE!!!! OHHH!!! and he goes you miss one more practice and youre off the team. im mean really?? SCHOOOL FIRST MAN!!! WTF??!? theres soo much shit that hes done to me as well as to the team i couldnt possibly explain it all on here itd take me 3 days...no, more..you see where im getting at? ITS NEVER-ENDING!!! stupid IVY IS A BITCH!! i hate him!! wtf is he my coach!! I WANT HEIN!! I MISS HEIN SOO MUCHH!!!! :( tears fell today at practice but only marissa knows of it. i tried hiding it and forced my tears to not flow but they did anyways. i dont wanna play my match tmrw i wanna be at frisbee! i scored a 1440 on my SAT/ACT combo test..horrible. my life is detierrating chunk by chunk each day. its funny when you find yourseld looking from the outside, when all i want to be is in there. i dont know...i got my standford sweatshirt stained in whip cream...so sad. sad beyond belief. standford is my dream school. i want it and i want it bad. i need a 2165 on SATs to get in. a stain on my sweatshirt is like a stain upon my life, i feel like i cant get in, its impossible. but i want it..i want it bad...im working my hardest but i feel like im gonna be dissapointed later on...im not jinxing myself. i knocked on wood. as for now and as ive always been doing, put on a smile for others to see and be happy. but inside...its killing me. i dont want my retrdedness to effect others of their joy. i hate living a double life. ehhh.. :/