hmmm...another week gone. this week dragged on for hella long. seconds to minutes to hours to days...sooo longgg..but its over now. everything...i guess you can say...is over. so a short overview of what happened. coach wont let me leave early. said i had a suger daddy. uhh got pissed cried for hella long then complained to the principal and thomas they didnt do shit cept copied down my facebook profile and told me to basiclaly stay and suck it up or quit today during 4th period. i love tennis too much to quit so i made a commmitment to him and said id stay and try to stay happy. il do what ive always been doing, stay, suck it up, and not say a word about it. this hurts and it hurts alot everytime i talk about it i begin to tear which is what is happening right now i get that churning knot that hurts like a bitch in my tummy but, you do what you gotta do for the best right? i guess both sides would be happy if i would stop causing so much trouble. ill take the blame for him. ill take the blame for everyone. just to put an end to it. live a life of peace. ill endure it. i can do it. im a strong girl. tears wont hurt me..only for a little but i can endure it. i guess, lifes life. i get what i deserve so..i just gotta deal with it no matter how hard it is i can get through. i just wanna know why? i havent hurt anyone, ive always done my best to help others, always be there for my freinds, working hard in school, loving my parents, endure my cousin's bichyness with kindness, so why? im nice, how come i dont deserve the better things in life? i dont know the answer to that either. all i know is life isnt life without its difficult obsticles. i gotta surpass them no matter what, so here i am....tugging, shoving, and pushing meyself through this. things might not always pay off, might not go the way i want them to go, but im gonna do my best and hope for the best, other than that, i can do nothing else. if things go right then yay...if not..i guess it is what it is. i didnt think thered be anymore tears after let fallen so much...but theres always more that come pouring down my cheeks. wipe them away, and never let one fall again.